Write On!

Oct. 26, 2012

I started writing this blog for one reason: to remind me to look for God’s presence in my life regularly, if not daily.  I need this reminder because that process isn’t natural for me.  Historically, I’ve been one to feel so distant from God during times of struggle.  Or, to be more accurate, God always felt far from me during those times.  But, I recognize the old saying is true: “If you feel far from God, who moved?”  God is ever-present so if He truly is everywhere all the time, then how can He move away from me?  So, of course, that leaves the migration to me.  To combat this feeling that is actually a lie, I look to see how God is with me.  When I see Him, I can feel Him.  He is tangible.

I’ve realized a few great side benefits to my writing.  First, it makes me take a little time to do something that is just for me.  It is a time that feeds me intellectually.  There have been many times that I gain a new insight about myself, my situation, my faith, or whatever during the process of writing.  It is a time of personal growth.

There is something different about going a step further and writing about seeing God working rather than just making a mental note of it.  It’s going deeper still (high 5 Bible study sisters!).  Writing not only feeds me intellectually, it feeds me spiritually.  When I see God work in my life, it is rock solid proof that He loves me.  God is outside of time.  Time is an earthly concept that is tied only to the Earth’s revolution, both of itself and of its part in the solar system revolving around the sun.  But God is not bound to just Earth; God is everywhere.  So, because God is outside of time, then He sees all time at once.  He sees past, present, and future all laid out before Him.  So, if you think about it, God sees all that ever was and all that is and all that ever will be at the same time.  And, in all of that, He sees little, tiny, SIGNIFICANT me.  I know I am significant because in all that He sees, past, present, and future, He works in my life and makes Himself known to me.  That concept alone feeds my spirit.

Finally, writing has become my therapy.  There have been times when I couldn’t sleep or times when I just needed to express what was on my heart.  Sitting down and writing calmed me.  Other times, it has served as a form of “talking myself into it” when I needed to hear that God was still here with me and that He cared.  Writing is also a sort of self-validation because there are certainly times when I re-read certain posts because I need to hear it again.  I need to remind myself.

So, my little jaunt into the blog-o-sphere has served me well.  I never thought this would be so fruitful for me.  I’ve grown personally, my faith has deepened and solidified, and I’ve even heard that others are enriched by it too.  A great win-win!