Oct. 25, 2014
We went to a Casting Crowns, Mandisa, and Sidewalk Prophets
concert tonight. It was fantastic! I heard a song I never heard before and it
really spoke to me.
Once or twice before I have written that I've been
struggling with feeling like Jonah not wanting to go to Nineveh. This pertained to two different things, one
being the president of Christian Counselors of Texas and the other one being
what I will call my “Nineveh.” I don’t
feel a need to go into details about it because that is really not the point.
This is something that I never really pictured myself doing
and I really don’t have an ambition for it.
Although, I can see some positives in it. After over a year of struggling with yet,
essentially telling God “no,” I then came to a place of “Okay God, if this is
what you want, then build the fire in me to want to do it.” In other words, I agreed begrudgingly.
But a few weeks ago, I came to a place of surrender that
said, “If this is what You want me to do, then I will do it and be glad in
it.” I was okay with it. I came to a place of surrender which also
revealed to me a place of gratitude.
“But I, with a song of thanksgiving, will sacrifice to you. What I have vowed I will make good.”
~~Jonah 2:9
~~Jonah 2:9
Then, something surprising happened. I think another door has opened. Another path has come into sight that doesn't
lead to Nineveh. I've thought a lot
about this and, of course, talked to Tim and asked, “Do you think this was just
a test to see if I would surrender to His will?” I think so.
And, once I did surrender my will to His, another possibility is on the
horizon.
I don’t know what is ahead of me regarding God’s plan. I do know, though, that it will be the right
one for me and I rejoice in whatever it is.
Nineveh always had a negative connotation for me. No longer!
Nineveh is a place of precious surrender. I’m letting go of my plan and being caught by
God’s hand. I’m letting God dream for
me!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R8nsJZx8eWw
